canada!!! :)

hello everybody! so the countdown is over and i'm in canada......miss y'all in s'pore.........

wanna thank 414 for being such a great class. and i'm so glad that y'all are happy abt the inter-class games results.....altho i just can't stop thinking about that goal i let in. i was THAT close to saving it. then we would've been first for BOTH! :):):) haha!

wenny, nix, sharyn, joo, melo. it was damn cool just sitting there chatting. and i'll send u guys the photos as soon as i get batt for my cam....haha! i'll upload the class fotos too.....i'm gonna set up a new blog for the class to access.... cos the e-groups is really slow for me.....so uhh.....yeahh. i'll e-mail the user & password to u guys when it's done.

the weather here is not THAT cold yet. today's 5 degrees celcius. and i only require my quicksilver sweater...no idea what 414 ppl will need

=17 more days=

= 24 more days =

save tonight

from now on, this blog shall only be used for CRAP! haha.

new blog site: www.livejournal.com/~genpang
you hafta add me as a friend to read it cos i'm gonna f-lock all my posts too......
:D don't miss me!

<3 wenny, melo, nix, val, debs, yen!































































=26 more days=


OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!

i've finally gotten over the whole band thing! :)

i'm glad to say that they have found a NEW member and i can feel less guilty about quitting....... :( and they have KINDLY been keeping me updated on progress and all.....

I LOVE MY BAND! (or rather, my FORMER band and mates.) shaggy seems quite a nice dood anw. we click......y'get wad i mean?




on a less happy note. im quitting SYO nxt yr.......and wenny n i r CRI.CRI.OMG ing ovr it......SIGHHHHH...........SAD.............................







T.T WAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

goodbye acid rush.

i can't believe i'm the first to leave mannnnn.........it was the first thing i had a share in heading....and now i gotta pull out......WHY? ohman ohman ohman..................i just can't believe it.....i guess it's for the good of the band.....having one ABSOLUTELY static member is like......

-___-zZzZzZzZz

sheesh. im SUCH A LOSERRRRRRRR

im in no mood to blog mann.

i'll remember acid rush. FOREVER! really, i mean it. and i'll be your number one fan..... :D must gimme free tix to your shows kayy?


























*sigh* i know it's the best choice for everyone, but why do i feel so crappy?

FOUR MORE DAYS!

i've been counting down like MAD man.....

i hate being cooped up at home
i hate having to follow the rules she sets
i hate having to secretly use the internet
i hate having to go visit all these strange people
i hate being asked if i miss my sis
i hate having to keep that secret, and thus having to lie to my friends.

i hate being in this place
so far away from home....

I'M HOMESICK!

i'm sorry guys, but i guess it IS a good thing after all........

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this blog might soon be closed down.

omggggg you hafta chk this out....

they're good lahhhh and the drummer is SO cute.....lols

steve gustavo azahar

wheeeee!!!!!! i can't really type very well now cos same thing happened to me like wat happened to val.....piano, violin, viola and guitar.....all in one shot. hardeeharhar. ohwell, i can feel my pulse by putting my fingertips together.......*throbthrobthrob* been recording like mad cos my grandmother's been asking me to and my mom's being bugged by her to bug me.....lols. NOW she knows how i feel hahaha! too bad she doesnt geddit still......had a little debate with yen last night and no idea if she is pissed or upset or WAT abt it......hmmmmmm. i hope she's ok lahh. bad way to go now that our band's gonna be more or less on hold......

dun wori lahh, you guys still haf SO MANY chances to play nxt yr lahh......dun be sad....it's not as if we're banning you from performing.....you can go do some indv stuff.....or grp, just that it won't be THE band ok? and im sori abt wad i sed.....cos i was juz kidding. we couldn't reli find an excuse and well, you WERE asking.....im sori.......

anw, gotta go 4 lunch.....except im full and starving at the same time...... o____O does that make sense? haha! ohwells. better not get into trouble......

there'll be a site for y'all to hear us play soooooon...... :) so keep chking back......like maybe sometime in nov/dec??? haha!

paranoid

why the HELL am i so bloody paranoid about everything?
my band?
my friends?
my life has been screwed cos i've been doubting for so long......and im sorry cos i've screwed up so many ppl too........

guess i've gotta watch my mouth if i can't control what's already made about me.....it's not that easy to control what i think and feel. but at least i know that i can control what i show and say......THANKFULLY.

ohwell, that was pretty random......
the week has been a rollercoaster ride that suddenly got stuck on the tracks.....

back to doraemon. :)

teachers' day.........

so i've been stuck at home for 3 days oredy......

why does it feel so long?

anw, im so proud of u guys!!!!!!!!! :) like, ppl sed it was gd! and well, i trust that val wouldn't lie to me....lols, so YEAHH!!! haha! YAY YEN! so many ppl were impressed lahh! haha! i know it's getting bloody irritating BUT IM SO GLAD I FOUND HER!!!!!!!! :) like ge sed "it's fate!" and i din noe that ge was her angel! WOW! haha! EEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! the world goes ROUND AND ROUND AND ROUND! hahaha!





and ppl FINALLY know our NAME! YESYESYESYES!!!!!!!!!! not like reverbere when everyone kept referring to us as "rock band"..... -____-"' HEY! i intro-ed us kayy......ok fine! i do tend to mumble into the mike anw...lols! so, things are returning to normal.....i guess......and looking back maybe i was overreacting a LITTLE! heehee! okok....pretty much lahh. so? that's what living for the moment is all about......and at least there's something i CARE for pretty much......

LOVE is what drives us all to the extremes....and in my case, my love for the band drove me to rock-bottom.....but now im up agn, cos my band members all rescued me:) aren't they juz the BEST?

yeahh baybee! lols

acid rush.!!! = LOVE

mann i LOVE my bandmates.......they're so.....i dunno......i think im actually at a loss of words of how to describe that incredible feeling i had when i tokked to them jnow.....and val is so on abt getting BIG! haha! mann i really love them all.......:) ohwell, you'll hafta wait val.....lols until i finish my uni rmb?? >.< haha! yeahhhh...anw, been on the com the WHOLE day and so i shan't get on tmr :) haha! i hope i can....i promised :/




WHOAAAAAA!!!!!!!! LIVING ON A PRAYER!!!!!!! :D i LOVE bonjovi too!!!!!!! haha!

what's the word? could it be apprehension?

i would really like to post it on my blog.......but my mom made me promise [and for once i agree that i should] not to tell anyone yet.....i guess i shall make an exception to certain three-four ppl? yeahh.....i really owe them anw......esp val and yen.....(no i hafen't forgotten u debbie, but im afraid we haven't seen much of each other lately.......) and HANG ON TO MY SPOT FOR ME WILLYA! haha :) i trust that u guys will........i'll continue sending u guys songs so we will haf somethg to play when we get back tgt......haha! oh! and i'll tell the rest of u ASAP! :D i won't keep you in the dark on purpose........im sorry if u will feel left out......i didn't mean to lie to y'all....i just found out today too! and when i heard i didn't know what to feel.....but the first thing that came to my mind was acid rush. ... and how it will be a looooooooooong time before we can play tgt EVER! and now im thinking abt val's LSL thing.....at least i found yen......she should be able to take my place......i'll still be able to help once in a while im sure....I HAVE FAITH IN MY BAND! :) and im sorry for all things that i said before that showed otherwise :( i wasn't in the right state of mind then......somehow i don't think i am now either...lols! shall keep this post short.......

it's off to work i go soon! :) i LOVE backstage work :)

last paper tmr......

i don't know if i should be happy or sad about that man.......it's gonna be the hols (which is good)....and it's gonna be teachers' day (which is bad).......it's gonna be work (which is good).......and it's gonna be BYEBYE rgs (which is both good and bad i guess)......but i'll miss acid rush. lahh......WHY do i hafta be the only secfour.....i mean....if it were like, two secfours and two secthrees then at least there'll be someone to get depressed with...now it'll be the three of them and ME.......*sighz* maybe if i get held back one year it won't be that bad after all....seeing how my grades are anw.......well, perhaps i shudn't haf joined the band.....then there wud haf been no depression and no dilemmas......but i can't give it up now that i'm in.....i don't haf anythg against u guys....it's all my problem......but is there ANY WAY that i can turn back time?? it wud be better for us ALL if i could pull myself out even b4 reverbere'06 band was formed.......if i didn't even know about it.....










WHY did you hafta tell me????????










i guess it's just not fair that im in the band when i don't EVER take time to practise with them......i mean...what HAVE i done for acid rush. apart from that one performance? which was not even with the WHOLE band anw? i feel like im just making use of the band to???? i dunno.....but im like a prop.....that isnt even needed in the first place......i cant give up the spot cos......cos im being selfish abt the whole thg......cos i HOPE that one day i can play......but when will it be?10?20?years??? will i ever get to play by the time we are ready to start off properly?

maybe szeyen is right and im worrying too much.....but what if i didn't give a damn abt it? i guess it won't even need me if i didn't care right?

i really don't know man.........

drifting between anger and depression

last night i suddenly felt so depressed again
and small
and insignificant
and i cried myself to sleep
and what made me feel really bad about the whole thing was that i snapped at my mom for asking me why i was being so moody....ok, it was partially her fault but im sure she's feeling quite lonely when i'm in school too....

then this morning i didn't feel bad about it at all cos she scolded me for being so moody and all.....(as if you don't show it too) so now i hafta act happy even though i am broken inside......

then during tuition i suddenly thought of pam and how she promised to call but never did and i felt so forgotten again.......and i missed Conrad......

which reminds me of my strange dream last night where i dreamt of filla and pam.....and then when i woke up this morning i wished it was the holidays seeing how school won't be fun anymore now that i can't stay back even for stupid things like class meetings.....sheesh......and i hafta tell ms ko that i can't stay for NE test altho it sounds really gay.....(sorry guys, but it DOES! can you believe it? you hafta pass NE to go to JC.....-__-'".....

anw, i have been having this urge the whole day to risk my neck by msging yen, then i realized that it was gonna mess up my chances of playing with acid rush. even worse so i decided not to......kinda feels funny that im looking for her altho i've barely got to know her......anw, im ranting agn.....BAH!

i find it funny that i write songs best when im depressed cos my songs dun come out depressed souding but rather angsty....lolz! guess im only really sad if something angers me too much....or is it the other way around? :P

=what lies between anger and depression is a whole pool of pain=
[why is NOBODY online? im REALLY bored y'noe.......]