::dEPriVEd iN DEatH::

canada!!! :)

2006-11-05T05:21:00.000+08:00

hello everybody! so the countdown is over and i'm in canada......miss y'all in s'pore.........

wanna thank 414 for being such a great class. and i'm so glad that y'all are happy abt the inter-class games results.....altho i just can't stop thinking about that goal i let in. i was THAT close to saving it. then we would've been first for BOTH! :):):) haha!

wenny, nix, sharyn, joo, melo. it was damn cool just sitting there chatting. and i'll send u guys the photos as soon as i get batt for my cam....haha! i'll upload the class fotos too.....i'm gonna set up a new blog for the class to access.... cos the e-groups is really slow for me.....so uhh.....yeahh. i'll e-mail the user & password to u guys when it's done.

the weather here is not THAT cold yet. today's 5 degrees celcius. and i only require my quicksilver sweater...no idea what 414 ppl will need

2006-10-17T10:30:00.000+08:00

=17 more days=

2006-10-11T07:49:00.000+08:00

= 24 more days =

save tonight

2006-10-09T09:49:00.000+08:00

from now on, this blog shall only be used for CRAP! haha.

new blog site: www.livejournal.com/~genpang
you hafta add me as a friend to read it cos i'm gonna f-lock all my posts too......
:D don't miss me!

<3 wenny, melo, nix, val, debs, yen!

=26 more days=

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!

2006-09-28T19:47:00.000+08:00

i've finally gotten over the whole band thing! :)

i'm glad to say that they have found a NEW member and i can feel less guilty about quitting....... :( and they have KINDLY been keeping me updated on progress and all.....

I LOVE MY BAND! (or rather, my FORMER band and mates.) shaggy seems quite a nice dood anw. we click......y'get wad i mean?

on a less happy note. im quitting SYO nxt yr.......and wenny n i r CRI.CRI.OMG ing ovr it......SIGHHHHH...........SAD.............................

T.T WAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

goodbye acid rush.

2006-09-12T22:16:00.000+08:00

i can't believe i'm the first to leave mannnnn.........it was the first thing i had a share in heading....and now i gotta pull out......WHY? ohman ohman ohman..................i just can't believe it.....i guess it's for the good of the band.....having one ABSOLUTELY static member is like......

-___-zZzZzZzZz

sheesh. im SUCH A LOSERRRRRRRR

im in no mood to blog mann.

i'll remember acid rush. FOREVER! really, i mean it. and i'll be your number one fan..... :D must gimme free tix to your shows kayy?

*sigh* i know it's the best choice for everyone, but why do i feel so crappy?

FOUR MORE DAYS!

2006-09-07T14:56:00.000+08:00

i've been counting down like MAD man.....

i hate being cooped up at home
i hate having to follow the rules she sets
i hate having to secretly use the internet
i hate having to go visit all these strange people
i hate being asked if i miss my sis
i hate having to keep that secret, and thus having to lie to my friends.

i hate being in this place
so far away from home....

I'M HOMESICK!

i'm sorry guys, but i guess it IS a good thing after all........

____________________________________________________

this blog might soon be closed down.

omggggg you hafta chk this out....

2006-09-04T14:42:00.000+08:00

they're good lahhhh and the drummer is SO cute.....lols

steve gustavo azahar

2006-09-04T12:23:00.000+08:00

wheeeee!!!!!! i can't really type very well now cos same thing happened to me like wat happened to val.....piano, violin, viola and guitar.....all in one shot. hardeeharhar. ohwell, i can feel my pulse by putting my fingertips together.......*throbthrobthrob* been recording like mad cos my grandmother's been asking me to and my mom's being bugged by her to bug me.....lols. NOW she knows how i feel hahaha! too bad she doesnt geddit still......had a little debate with yen last night and no idea if she is pissed or upset or WAT abt it......hmmmmmm. i hope she's ok lahh. bad way to go now that our band's gonna be more or less on hold......

dun wori lahh, you guys still haf SO MANY chances to play nxt yr lahh......dun be sad....it's not as if we're banning you from performing.....you can go do some indv stuff.....or grp, just that it won't be THE band ok? and im sori abt wad i sed.....cos i was juz kidding. we couldn't reli find an excuse and well, you WERE asking.....im sori.......

anw, gotta go 4 lunch.....except im full and starving at the same time...... o____O does that make sense? haha! ohwells. better not get into trouble......

there'll be a site for y'all to hear us play soooooon...... :) so keep chking back......like maybe sometime in nov/dec??? haha!

paranoid

2006-09-02T19:40:00.000+08:00

why the HELL am i so bloody paranoid about everything?
my band?
my friends?
my life has been screwed cos i've been doubting for so long......and im sorry cos i've screwed up so many ppl too........

guess i've gotta watch my mouth if i can't control what's already made about me.....it's not that easy to control what i think and feel. but at least i know that i can control what i show and say......THANKFULLY.

ohwell, that was pretty random......
the week has been a rollercoaster ride that suddenly got stuck on the tracks.....

back to doraemon. :)

teachers' day.........

2006-09-01T21:41:00.000+08:00

so i've been stuck at home for 3 days oredy......

why does it feel so long?

anw, im so proud of u guys!!!!!!!!! :) like, ppl sed it was gd! and well, i trust that val wouldn't lie to me....lols, so YEAHH!!! haha! YAY YEN! so many ppl were impressed lahh! haha! i know it's getting bloody irritating BUT IM SO GLAD I FOUND HER!!!!!!!! :) like ge sed "it's fate!" and i din noe that ge was her angel! WOW! haha! EEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! the world goes ROUND AND ROUND AND ROUND! hahaha!

and ppl FINALLY know our NAME! YESYESYESYES!!!!!!!!!! not like reverbere when everyone kept referring to us as "rock band"..... -____-"' HEY! i intro-ed us kayy......ok fine! i do tend to mumble into the mike anw...lols! so, things are returning to normal.....i guess......and looking back maybe i was overreacting a LITTLE! heehee! okok....pretty much lahh. so? that's what living for the moment is all about......and at least there's something i CARE for pretty much......

LOVE is what drives us all to the extremes....and in my case, my love for the band drove me to rock-bottom.....but now im up agn, cos my band members all rescued me:) aren't they juz the BEST?

yeahh baybee! lols

acid rush.!!! = LOVE

2006-08-29T22:38:00.000+08:00

mann i LOVE my bandmates.......they're so.....i dunno......i think im actually at a loss of words of how to describe that incredible feeling i had when i tokked to them jnow.....and val is so on abt getting BIG! haha! mann i really love them all.......:) ohwell, you'll hafta wait val.....lols until i finish my uni rmb?? >.< haha! yeahhhh...anw, been on the com the WHOLE day and so i shan't get on tmr :) haha! i hope i can....i promised :/

WHOAAAAAA!!!!!!!! LIVING ON A PRAYER!!!!!!! :D i LOVE bonjovi too!!!!!!! haha!

what's the word? could it be apprehension?

2006-08-29T14:42:00.000+08:00

i would really like to post it on my blog.......but my mom made me promise [and for once i agree that i should] not to tell anyone yet.....i guess i shall make an exception to certain three-four ppl? yeahh.....i really owe them anw......esp val and yen.....(no i hafen't forgotten u debbie, but im afraid we haven't seen much of each other lately.......) and HANG ON TO MY SPOT FOR ME WILLYA! haha :) i trust that u guys will........i'll continue sending u guys songs so we will haf somethg to play when we get back tgt......haha! oh! and i'll tell the rest of u ASAP! :D i won't keep you in the dark on purpose........im sorry if u will feel left out......i didn't mean to lie to y'all....i just found out today too! and when i heard i didn't know what to feel.....but the first thing that came to my mind was acid rush. ... and how it will be a looooooooooong time before we can play tgt EVER! and now im thinking abt val's LSL thing.....at least i found yen......she should be able to take my place......i'll still be able to help once in a while im sure....I HAVE FAITH IN MY BAND! :) and im sorry for all things that i said before that showed otherwise :( i wasn't in the right state of mind then......somehow i don't think i am now either...lols! shall keep this post short.......

it's off to work i go soon! :) i LOVE backstage work :)

last paper tmr......

2006-08-28T20:54:00.000+08:00

i don't know if i should be happy or sad about that man.......it's gonna be the hols (which is good)....and it's gonna be teachers' day (which is bad).......it's gonna be work (which is good).......and it's gonna be BYEBYE rgs (which is both good and bad i guess)......but i'll miss acid rush. lahh......WHY do i hafta be the only secfour.....i mean....if it were like, two secfours and two secthrees then at least there'll be someone to get depressed with...now it'll be the three of them and ME.......*sighz* maybe if i get held back one year it won't be that bad after all....seeing how my grades are anw.......well, perhaps i shudn't haf joined the band.....then there wud haf been no depression and no dilemmas......but i can't give it up now that i'm in.....i don't haf anythg against u guys....it's all my problem......but is there ANY WAY that i can turn back time?? it wud be better for us ALL if i could pull myself out even b4 reverbere'06 band was formed.......if i didn't even know about it.....

WHY did you hafta tell me????????

i guess it's just not fair that im in the band when i don't EVER take time to practise with them......i mean...what HAVE i done for acid rush. apart from that one performance? which was not even with the WHOLE band anw? i feel like im just making use of the band to???? i dunno.....but im like a prop.....that isnt even needed in the first place......i cant give up the spot cos......cos im being selfish abt the whole thg......cos i HOPE that one day i can play......but when will it be?10?20?years??? will i ever get to play by the time we are ready to start off properly?

maybe szeyen is right and im worrying too much.....but what if i didn't give a damn abt it? i guess it won't even need me if i didn't care right?

i really don't know man.........

drifting between anger and depression

2006-08-27T14:50:00.000+08:00

last night i suddenly felt so depressed again
and small
and insignificant
and i cried myself to sleep
and what made me feel really bad about the whole thing was that i snapped at my mom for asking me why i was being so moody....ok, it was partially her fault but im sure she's feeling quite lonely when i'm in school too....

then this morning i didn't feel bad about it at all cos she scolded me for being so moody and all.....(as if you don't show it too) so now i hafta act happy even though i am broken inside......

then during tuition i suddenly thought of pam and how she promised to call but never did and i felt so forgotten again.......and i missed Conrad......

which reminds me of my strange dream last night where i dreamt of filla and pam.....and then when i woke up this morning i wished it was the holidays seeing how school won't be fun anymore now that i can't stay back even for stupid things like class meetings.....sheesh......and i hafta tell ms ko that i can't stay for NE test altho it sounds really gay.....(sorry guys, but it DOES! can you believe it? you hafta pass NE to go to JC.....-__-'".....

anw, i have been having this urge the whole day to risk my neck by msging yen, then i realized that it was gonna mess up my chances of playing with acid rush. even worse so i decided not to......kinda feels funny that im looking for her altho i've barely got to know her......anw, im ranting agn.....BAH!

i find it funny that i write songs best when im depressed cos my songs dun come out depressed souding but rather angsty....lolz! guess im only really sad if something angers me too much....or is it the other way around? :P

=what lies between anger and depression is a whole pool of pain=
[why is NOBODY online? im REALLY bored y'noe.......]

i stand corrected

2006-08-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

i guess i shouldn't have said all that in my previous post....unfortunately i don't EVER delete my posts so guys PLS ignore it.......i can't believe i doubted my band like that......*sighz* anw, i tokked to szeyen and i cleared lotsa things up.....and i cheered up pretty much too! :D uh-huh.

THANKYOU SZEYEN! :):):):):):)

and i noe you guys wud haf done the same too so thx all the same... :) hope i can do the rest of my EOIs well......i would really owe it to yen if i do.....haha! and nicole too....so yeah...

THX NIX!

well.......hafta get off the com cos YOU KNOW WHY......so i shall be good lahh.....haha! gdnitez! :D:D:D:D:D

yen, i shall get you in as far as my abilities allow! :)

i think britney spears is one hot babe!

left out... :'(

2006-08-23T07:34:00.000+08:00

dude, i know this is really stupid...but i was just reading val's blog AND I SUDDENLY FEEL SO FORGOTTEN!!!!!! and left out.....it's almost as if i wasn't EVER part of acid rush. and like they've been praccing like that all along......mann......i think it's just the whole [EOIs are here and i just got banned from concert] feeling.....but i dunno why i'm not happy that they can manage.....i was so looking forward to out "debut" man.....*haiz* ohwell.....maybe they'd be better off without me...seeing that i can't even go for a single prac EVER! since they got szeyen now and as val said to me before..."three piece still quite okay wadd...." ok...i dunno man....this whole incident is making me DAMN moody....

on the other hand...at least i studied for 6 hrs y'dae...like....hist and chem while secretly using the net.....and chatting with joy.... :P haha! and watching/listening to buddy's stuff....

enjoy your band guys...... :

SCREW THE WHOLE WORLD!!!!!

2006-08-22T09:39:00.000+08:00

OMG! I'M SO SORRY SZEYEN, DEBBIE AND VAL!!!!! I REALLY REALLY AM!!!!! spent the whole of yesterday crying my eyes out lahh.....

"without a thought wuthout a voice without a soul.....JUST let me die here, there ISN'T ANYTHING more...."

and like.....THE DAY BEFORE THE EXAMS!!!!! i can't believe it....it was supposed to be our first appearance....i just can't believe it.....ah!!!!!!!!!! and i actually finished memorizing build me up lyrics and FINALLY managed to play bass while singing.....I DON'T BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!! completely screwed up my SS today cos i was just feeling so lousy and all.......OMG!!!!!!!!! and it didn't help that i FLUNKED my english PT writeup......and everyone was just busy rubbing it in about how badly they did when they got like.....70% and above......HELLO!!!!!! I FAILED!!!!!!! FAILED ok????? now are you happy??? omg....my life is so screwed man......i mean, that was what kept me going all along.....when i studied and did my work it was what motivated me....now i really don't see the point of continuing school.....i know most of you will think that's really stupid cos that's not all that school is about but i really don't care.....it's not as if i do well in anything in school at all (other than PE)...and even so i always fail my NAPFA so what's the point????? if i go out and get my own job then i don't have to live with that woman......it's not really all her fault but she KNEW that that was gonna be a HUGE blow to me.....it's just not fair.....if you're gonna screw up my social life least you can do is to give some concessions in the area of school stuff right?????

OMG! this is so FUCKED UP man.....almost cried this morning when i got my marks cos it's like, I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN OVER MY LOSS OF YESTERDAY MAN!!!!! and now i screwed up SS really badly.....MAN!!!!! what else can go wrong will definitely go wrong.....I SWEAR! thing is i'm not prepared.......

I WAS SO HAPPY! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO BURST MY BUBBLE???????

OMG! I'M REALLY SORRY GUYS! don't let me down pls??? think of me when you're playing kay??? :) hopefully we can still continue this some other time.....

SZE YEN! you've got REAL talent.....give it all u got......

DEBBIE! you work the hardest......

and VAL! thanks for being so ON with me......i'm just praying that i can do the LSL with you......

see you guys around.....like.....after term3 break.... :( i'll miss acid rush.!

HAPPY BDAE YUHUI!

2006-08-14T22:45:00.000+08:00

heyy, i just noticed that ever since this band was started my entries started sounding a lott less negative mann....haha! yeah man, i REALLY REALLY love my band.....and szeyen is officially in for this year's school events.... :D she's got a damn nice voice man. and most ppl i talked to agree.....ok, all the ppl i tokked to agree....lols....so anw we're in!!! haha! shan't tell u in for what tho....heehee!!!! u'll juz hafta WAIT AND SEE!!!! hahahaha!!!!

ok, this is DAMN hilarious man.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UnFV-fvgOu0
it's like....weird..... :/

anw, i haf been frequenting youtube like A LOT man. esp cos of this band thing yeahh.....haha! they've got all kinda weird stuff....like "dog beatboxing".....strange people...lols anw i really want a youtube account man.....like, i hafta wait till i'm 18???? dammit! sighs.....

shall attempt to return to studying.....bet that will be at like what?? 3 am??? hahahahaha!!!! :P

signing out: barkbarkbark *attempts to beatbox* haha!

bandbandband

2006-08-07T10:16:00.000+08:00

i know i've got my own, but i've just been wondering man...

WHAT'S ALL THIS HYPE ABOUT BANDS???

i mean, people think you're cool just cos you are in a band???? i would absolutely hate it if ppl say tt to me....ok, they already have.... so what kinda mindset is this anw?

post-reverbere celebrations today....haiz......I WANNA GO WATCH THE TAPE LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not fair....NOT fair mann....... anw, im gonna get it and ask someone to help me copy and then cut our band section out...then we can post it on our webbie as our FIRST performance..... :) heehee!!!!!!! and when we improve then we can start circulating our vids... :P lols....i think im starting to think as big as val....haha! kinda ridiculous when you think about it but i guess if we ever make it then it won't seem so silly....hehs! oh wells.....

just did a crash course on math ydae and found i can follow muchos better in lessons now....YAY! and euphoria just RAWKZ!!!!! heehee!!!! i LOVE the bass intro mann.....i want all our songs to have bass intros...that shall be our band speciality.....>.< harhar!!!! and the fact that vocals are low??? i dunno, i like singing covers but i really want a proper vocalist....and i like drumming too.....i mean, IT'S MY LIFE! heehee! but i really think val's a much better drummer....but i also can't do rhythm/lead as well as her...*sighz* ohwells. guess it's easier to improve on drums WHEN i finally get to actually prac....haha! maybe that's all i need....

lessons....CIAO!

OMGOMG!!!!!!

2006-08-03T13:36:00.000+08:00

VAL,DEBBIE!!!! i think i found our missing vocalist at last!!!! ohmann.....let's see what you guys think larh.....heehee!!!! but those notes are DAMN PURE SIA!!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!! :P lols......

SS...... -_-

2006-08-02T15:37:00.000+08:00

ohmann......i HATE ss....both of them....damn waste of time lah.....and now i can't even have band prac....had to turn down the teacher's day thing..... :( sheesh.....so anw we haf set up a band site and two e-adds... :P haha! damn fun lah! really.....even if we NEVER make it (which we will...) its still worth doing cos it's so FUN!!!!!! whee!!!!!!!! hahaha!

anw, i <333333333333333 my band and nothing will ever make me change my mind.....lolz....and i've been piling songs on val to write...heehee! thankyou val! :) she can do the chinese and i'll do the english.....i think fang is a crazy songwriter....lols......

DEBBIE! VAL! i miss jamming with you guys.....it was soooooooo fun mann.....haiz

the mouse the cat and the dog.....

=shaggy= >.< *woof!*

acid rush.

2006-07-25T13:48:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!!! i NEVER thot that i would possibly be in a band!!! THANKYOU to debs and valzai...i was SOOOOO high yesterday during lunch mann....it's like, val passed me her letter and i read it...AND THANKYOU VAL AND DEBBIE FOR MAKING MY DAY!!!! MUAX!!!!!! and things have been not that good at home so i guess this really meant A LOT lah!!! :):):):):):) heehee! and our 'CIP' thingy seems to be going on REALLY well....lim geok tuan is such a cool teacher mann.....OH YEAH, i need to go look for mrs loh....okok, b4 guitar lah....anw, i hope it's successful.....all you peeps out there. MUST SUPPORT THIS EVENT KAY!!! more info will be out as things progress lah...mmhmm..... :P

so today is voting day! hahaha!!!!! i'm backing debs and val DUH.....sori all others but 1) they are capable and 2) they are really gret frens....all votes definately have a level of bias to them....i guess it's no point trying to hide it lah.....

bell just rang...one more hour to guitar.....somehow i dun think i'll do well for assessment.....but i have other things on my mind now....such as VIOLA GRADE 8......I NEED A TEACHER!!!!! muz rmb to ask wenny abt ernie.....and of course...EOIs...kinda makes me wonder why i'm still blogging huh.....ohwell...it's an excuse but i can't really study in skul.....

I SHALL CONCENTRATE WHEN I'M STUDYING AT HOME!!!!!!! CANNOT CHEAT MYSELF!!!!!! OR I'LL BE LETTING THE BAND DOWN.....humph! :P heehee!

WANJOO!!!!! REPLY ASAP CAN????????? sheesh! so indecisive arh.....haijoh!!!!!! turns out slatter will most prob be away then anw....must have a band or not 'tradition'.....hahaha! =P

acid rush. this band shall stand till the end of time!

Canon Rock.....damn cool lah!

i miss my band

2006-07-18T13:54:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! i suffering from MAJOR withdrawal symptoms mann...... i miss my band like hell larh....we had so much fun....i did at least....*sniff* and reverbere was such a success! :) WAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'( and syo ppl r going on exam leave too.......im gonna miss them......and andris too......even though we stopped talking i had always looked up to her mann.....still dun understand why it all happened.....it was too fast i guess......

now i need to get 70% or above for my EOIs..... and with my previous score, it means that i will have to get 80++% mann........AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! someone HELP??????????

ohmanohman.....i miss my band like hell larh..............VAL!!!!!!!!!!!! DEBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! acid rush.!!!!!!!! we WILL play for FAM......i will put in 300% of effort to ensure that......i promise you guys.....this shall be my motivation to do well for the EOIs..... :)

shall go home to study now...... i promise myself and the band that i shall study 2 hours a day from today onwards.....

acid rush.

this band shall stand till the end of time.

blogblogblogblogblog.......

2006-06-27T09:59:00.000+08:00

WOW! looooooooong time no blog mann..... ahaha! haven't had time larh....so guitarnite is coming....too soon larh....dammit! okayy......classical gas is JUST ok...JUST! ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! rockband is GOOD! haha! 'cept we need EQUIPTMENT! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DRUMS! WE NEED DRUMS! and AMPS! oh mann........but debbie's RELI good considering that she's our newest member. Debbie Stoopid Joy Goh....and i called her last night and her sis picked up her fone....and they sound so alike so i thot she was debs. so i sed "eh, stoopid debbie! can hear me anot..." heehee!!!!!!! aiyo...... >.< okies... so let's just hope it's successful larh....hehhehheh!

=P

what is the price of happiness?

2006-05-14T18:51:00.000+08:00

i thot today was a GREAT day...i mean, my mom even brot me to Macs for breakfast.....how bad cud the day get? right? WRONG!!!!!!!! i dunno how far i can screw up my life and EVRYONE ELSE'S around me.....im so confused now....is it my fault or not? why is it i can never keep my happiness? am i not trying hard enough? what's going on??????????????????????????????? ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is just so FULL OF SHIT man...............DAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i reli need sumone to tok to.....IF YOU'RE READING THIS, AND IF I KNOW YOU, PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sigh* you are really cracking up, you know? sheesh!

new timetable

2006-05-09T14:21:00.000+08:00

okayy....so now we have a new timetable.......AND so i get to have some free time before guitar starts!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!! haha.........except redmund law is in the room so i cant *ahem* well....ynoe wad i mean mann........haiya! xian......

i cant wait to hear from the WEP ppl...... :):):) i REALLYREALLY want the job man!!!!! and i spent so much time that i will be sooperly disappointed if i ont get the job.........ohwells......so dinner on 20th......$6.90X7.......which makes $48.30 :) haha! okay larh.....super BIG loss larh....but it's worth the experience at least.....haha! aj, jess, jacq, jolyn, kylie, sharyn, nicole. yeah! >.-coolios!

like, everyone is bz with film.....so i shall [maybe] go over to the other room.....haha! [of course the maybe was dependent on the presence of the heads.......heehee!] =P

THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE!

2006-05-05T10:19:00.000+08:00

wednesday nite was a nightmare mann.....THANKYOU GE FOR KEEPING ME ALIVE! i guess it's really sucky to have so many *things* going on....but in a way im thankful for it all too........i guess it showed me that ppl still care.....JOEY! thankyou too for caring....i reli needta reign in my anger or one of these days i'll end up dead sooner than i shud......MUCH SOONER THAN I SHUD.... :( *sighz*

THANKYOU GE!!!!!!!! :)

post production blues... :(

2006-05-01T10:09:00.000+08:00

Only One
Yellowcard
Broken, this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you, so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go, so dishonestly
Leave a note, for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! production is over and I MISS IT!!!!!!!!!!!! okay....cant post now....my mom's at home...BUT STAGEHANDS ROCK DA WORLD!!!!!! yeah!!!!!!!!! :):):)

RS IS OVERRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-26T06:54:00.000+08:00

wahaha!!!!!!!!!! it's over! i was like reading to my paper and tripping over my words but waddahell mann.....feels gd to move from RS presentation straight into LIT PT!!!!!!!!!!! [AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!] dammit larh....really can't be too bothered liaozzzz......anw, on fri juz b4 inconvo i did 23 IPUs in 30 sec.....heehee!!!!! feels DAMN good mann..... :) den mom cudn fetch me so i hitched a ride from shana.......n her dad kept trying to get me to go to her bro's party.......sheesh mann........

so ms christina called ms hoo n told her abt the GO incident......dammitdammitdammit.........ohwells.....i reli din mean it orritez???? i was juz sooperly stressed n pissed at myself lor seriously.......hiazzzz......

math is finally getting FUN agn!!!! heehee!!!!!! or rather, i can finally catch up larh.....hehs! :P dun blieve how lost i was between this n probability....which is like all the topics we learnt except two........bleagh!!!!!! >.< wanna go gaia!!!!! hahaha!! ciaozzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!

=gen=
~tURTLE_EGg~

inconversation

2006-04-21T14:54:00.000+08:00

haha okayys so today is in convo and i stay in skul till 7pm....hahaha!!!!!!!! ok so im typing now......and typing summore....and typing SUMMORE!!!! ok, as u can see i haf nothg to blog abt except that FIZ IS IN SKUL AGN!!!!!! hahahahaha! hey fiz, read this mann......okayyyyyyyy im going madd.......=P heehee!!!! lazy to blog larh...... >.<

2006-04-19T20:17:00.000+08:00

YAY! today was PFT 5 stations and boy oh boy was it GOOD!!!!!!! haha! so i got 4 As and a C......that's fine man....juz dandy...hurhur! sit-ups: 31 [very few people actually bother doing more than that larh....] SBJ: 195.... [dammit mann...i dropped down by 11cm larh....and no matter how hard i tried after that i cudn get more than 199.... :( *sighz*] S&R: forty-something.....[all i noe is that i reached an A...surprisingly....hurhur] IPU: 18!!!! [haha! it was like....i reached 18 and i leapt up and went mad yelling things along the lines of 'YESS!!!! I DID IT!!!! I DID IT!!!!'haha! Shuttle-run: 11.76 [somethg liddat....i cant sprint like that for nuts....i can sprint the last 200m if i run 400m....but i cant reli start juz liddat.... haha! and i had trouble turning around too....damn bloody knee!!!!! >=|] anw, im quite pleased with my results larh.....maybe i'll surprise myself and do well in 2.4....haha! as if!

I'M SO PROUD OF JESS!!!!! haha! she got what she wanted for SBJ (and i helped to coach her >.<) haha! but she did it ALL BY HERSELF!!!!!!! good job jess!!!!! :):):) now you dun needta worry rite? :) haha! now u owe me an ice-cream!!!!! haha! =P im sucha pikkkkkk!!!!!!!!

apparently fiz came to skul 2dae but i din see her cos i went for recess 2dae.....haha!!!! but i dun think she did PFT...... o__O ohwellz....tmr fiz? boleh? *grinz*

=gen=
~tURTLE_EGg~

AHHHH!!!!!!!!

2006-04-17T10:17:00.000+08:00

dammit mann.....chem is SOOOOOO screwed larh....SHIT!!!!!!! and i think we are gonna end up spending more than that group we discussed......ohmannohmann!!!!!!!!! n i think im rght to assume that SOMEONE isn in skul todae......*kofffizkoff* or maybe her recess juz diff time larh.......ok so ms hoo is gonna call my dad......watevr mann.....i told her i dun reli care liaozzzz n she laffed.....so dere mann......WTF!!!! this is such a SHITTY month.....wonder wad happened to Clare's fone......oh nvm...........

X|

PFT.........

2006-04-12T11:19:00.000+08:00

PFT 5 stations 19th april.....2.4 2nd may......SHIT mann.....like i just ran jnow and now im DYING!!!!!!!!! damndamndamn!!!!!!!! damn bell jux rang......blog later larh............................................................................
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................... =P isnt it jux pissing how i LURV dotting all ovr the place??? *grinz*
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ok so im home now and i juz finished baking a cheesecake n a brownie.....hehs!!!! turns out im really rusty at baking redi.....hopefully its okay mann.....hahaha!!!!!!!!!! or my rep will totally DEFLATE tmr............ >.< hmms.......IM SOSOSOSOSO sorry xinning....u'll hafta wait for your letter kays....ive been reli bz lately....or acherli not that bz but juz reli slow at my work so i haf been getting a severe lack of slp.....-_-zZzZzZzZzZz hahahaha!!!!!!! i think evryone is tho'....so tmr is class bdae celebration and berny's bdae.....HAPPI BDAE BERNY!!!!!!! :) yay!!! u r 16 at last! can go watch NC16 movies without feeling guilty liaozzzz!!!! haf u evr watched b4 anw? n do u evr feel guilty if u do? hehs! ok....so im kinda looking forward to 5 stations [as always] but im sooooooo dreading 2.4.......im so outta prac during that 1 n a half months that i sprained my knee cos i did veh little walking n practically NO running/jogging then......okok.....this sunday if im going gymming im gonna RUN!!!!! no excuses mann......reli needta train up for it oredy.....if not sure fail den needta retest.....bleagh! :(:(:( sighs.....ok, shall be good and read up on strengths quest thingum...........*sighs*.....

FIZ!!!!! COME TO SCHOOL TMR!!!!! heehee!!!!! butden agn got class party during recess AND lunch....heehee!!!!!! so fine larh.....but i think im gonna tok to her abt sum stuff larh....getting a bit worried abt that redi.... :P hehs! weird comin from me huh..... *grinz*

=gen=
~tURTLE_EGg~
120406, 10:38:46

STILL sleepyyyyy..........

2006-04-06T21:03:00.000+08:00

okay...so i calculated that i have slept for approx 4.5hrs over the past 11 days....and its sooper FUCKING CRAP MANN!!!!! today was so unproductive...i slpt durg HCL, fizix n hist.....sheesh.......damn crap mann......hrmm......OK, so SS pt is due soon....relireli soon...

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's NOT gd news mann......dammit......James Ong has such cool Oakley shades.......n he lent them to me today durg phys ed...haha!!!!! they're sooper nice to wear larh.....doesnt slip or slide at all........aniwae tmr is sports fest and after tt is ORA......olé....'cept i haf work to cheong....n Rona tan called me 'bo chap'....OKAAAAAAAAY...watevr mann....like i gif a shit wad u think.....

so fiz is FINALLY back in skul.......YAY!!!!! n we spent like recess n lunch catching up.....ok we wernt.....we were juz sitting in the com lab n using the com nxt 2 each other.....but mann i havent seen her in AGES mann.......it's like WOW FIZ!!!! HOW LONG IZZIT SINCE I LAST SAW U??????? hehs! =P ohwellz....m gonna go watch tv.....YAY!!!!!!! one of the rare occasions.....heehee!!!!!!! cant wait mann.....ciaozzzz!!!!!!!!!!!! =P

concert was GREAT btw! like so much euphoria......heehee!!!!!!!

-_-ZzZzZzZzZz

2006-03-30T10:07:00.000+08:00

ohmann......im just so effing sleeeeeeeepy mann.........SYO rehearsals 3 days on end and concert today......plus physics and chem tests as well......can DIE mann...................................im putting so many dots cos SHANA is sitting next to me commenting on my dots.....and she's asking me to type faster so here is my fastest typing...
kluasdhgrksdfjbn dflkbjdfn gtbkljdf
haha!!!!!!! figured i can't type fast eh..... =P heehee!!!!!!!!! slept 5 and a half hrs on monday night den din sleep on tues nite and 1.5 hrs on wed nite.....hopefully after concert tonite i get to sleep larh......haha!!!!! shall use sat to recover as much as i can.......wish i cud slp in on sun morning but got tuition mann.....sux! :( ohwellz

shall attempt to survive today and tonite..... -_-zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz >.<

ISD :(

2006-03-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

okayy, so today was ISD fieldtrip day....bloody boring altho the guns were reli nice....and we walked + stood for like.....at LEAST 3 hrs......and can u imagine standing on ONE leg?? cos my left knee is still being a COMPLETE asshole and not healing properly.....okok....i havent been letting it heal either -_-"' aniwae we got back to skul at like....6.30pm....and i was sooper SHAGGED cos well, like i sed, i had been standing on ONE leg.....and i was stumbling all over the place cos i reli cudn control liaoz.....so wen our bus was driving into the skul i saw wenny and i was trying to telepathically tell her not to get a cab cos i cudve given her a lift....but nvrmind....haha!!!!

and like, wen i reached CCAB i was half dying and thankfully sitting in the car for 15 minutes helped larh....at least i cud walk into the rm without crashing into people.....hurhurhur! and during prac cos the stoopid wristguard was restricting my movement i removed it...NVR AGN MANN!!!!! my wrist is DYING now......cant evn press down on the comp keys mann.........can die larh.....hrmmmm. ohwells....im willing for the sake of music.....hehs!!!!! so i almost fell on my way to the toilet.....nvr felt like this b4 mann....as if i was DRUNK!!!! so bloody embarrassing cos i almost fell flat on my face after tripping ovr the double-bass mann......argh!!!! gonna MAKE SURE my leg heals SOON!!!!! else i die larh....need to run for inter-class!!! haha!!! so fun so fun...... :)

hmms.....berny! dun be so angry larh.....at least you get to sing kayy.....and we will look for you if we need a singer okays.......u'll be the first person we look for....promise..... :) XINER! dunno if u read this but like what val sed, u're actually reli pro! just see your good points and u'll feel much more confident when u're playing! and PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE practise beb! i know you oso want guitar nite to be as memorable as it can get rite? evn if u dun....do it for me n bib n val...please? cos this is most prob my onli chance to perform with you all.... :) okay arh beb!!!!! look out world! here we comeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!

tuesdayy

2006-03-22T16:40:00.000+08:00

i think our band is PRO!!!!! haha!!!! [although i would appreciate it if you stopped going on about how you have nothing to do Berny, cos in the first place you're just our 'guest' singer for the chinese song......and the rest of us are playing in this band >.< but nice drumming tho d=] XINER!! dun u DARE give me anymore heart attacks mann....it's reli hard to be a good band if the players are not committed....and you're not lousy! u just take time to learn.....but once u've learnt it i think u play RELIRELI well beb! :) er..val arh, no need to say right......not only playing but composing oso......BIB! u're keeping the band in the right mood!!! and thx 4 turning up every prac evn though it means coming to skul 4 just that one hour or so.....u shud try to come for guitar prac more often though..... =/ i wish we cud play 4 more than JUST guitar nite, but NOOOO......thx to xiner larh.....STOOPID GIRL!!!!!! haha! kiddin beb......consider playing for other events oso lah kayy??? :)

okay..so i RELI wanna join the crew, but im like so not gonna be allowed cos of a CERTAIN someone....... $30grand mann.....who doesnt want it??????? and wad's more im actually being ASKED to join....like, 'wat an honor mann' HURRRRRR............DAMMITDAMMITDAMMITDAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so waddahell.....hope we can continue with band prac nxt yr and so on........i LOVE our band mann...........haha!!!!!!!!!

viva was GREAT!!!! i got ONE qn and i spent....i dunno, was it 2 minutes even???? and ms hoo juz sed 'OK! three and three. [referring to the two different portions] GO!' haha!!!!! and everyone was like 'You're done already??????' and ms hoo called over from where she was sitting and she was like......'i asked her one qn and she answered it without any prompting!' heehee!!!! im so gonna gloat!!!! =P

gonna watch another movie tonight......haha!!!! my first movie of the year was a complete fiasco.....hope this one will be MUCH better larh....haha!!!!! :)

-_-"'

2006-03-20T23:06:00.000+08:00

mann........today was reli gret, i went for guitar and tokked abt jamming AGN!!!! :) n went thru math with jess :):):):):) den it just HAS to happen mann......

i stepped out of guitar late ni kena scolded AS USU larh......waddahell mann! totally RUINED my day man! i wanna go gymming soon!!!!! im starting to feel SOOPER restless.....hehs! >.<

CLARE!!!!! wen do i get 2 cya agn? i was supposed to see you on Sunday mann.....

ANDRIS!!!!!!! wen will we ever get to tok agn like we used to? you kinda juz disappeared from my life since my fone got taken.....u were a reli nice person to tok to ynoe.....wat happened?????? :(

JESS!!!!! i LOVE Paulo!!!! haha!!!!!! sometimes i cud kick myself for buying stuff to give away.....butden agn i noe that i will find it a waste of $$ if i bot it 4 myself.....ill ask to see Paulo agn okayy???? haha!!! =P

is it called loneliness?

2006-03-19T13:02:00.000+08:00

mann.....i dunno if im suffering from withdrawal symptoms or wadd......just having this empty feeling in me right now that i can't explain......everything looks so barren now......>.< i relireli wanted to go gymming today cos i feel like it n cos i can go tok to clare......den cos i have YET another dinner today so i cant go n im relireli bored n in need of someone to chat with/tok to......DAMMIT MAN! ohwellz....maybe if i can go on my own....n clare doesnt respond larh....STOOPID GURL YOU!!!!! haha! kiddin beb!

*sighz*

~shuts up~

back from GUITAR CAMP!!!!

2006-03-14T21:44:00.000+08:00

yay!!!! guitar camp was SOOPER fun!!!! haha!!!! i succesfully convinced jess to stay overnight and now she's glad i got her convinced...haha!!!!!! ok, so station games weren't that fun larh...but at least it wasn't 'okay, lets all siddown and learn chords' or that kinda crap.......the water balloon game was NICE!!! heehee!!!!! JESS, YOUR AIM SUX!!!! N U CALL YOURSELF A SOFTBALLER....tsktsk!!! haha!!! she can't even aim at my BACK mann....and i was standin pretty near her and completely still....sheesh!!! den dere was tha nightwalk.....yufang tole me to help out den i felt bad cos jess had to do it.....so i managed to get jess outa the nightwalk too!!! heehee!!!! and we played the MRT game, the cross-uncross, the sheep jump over the fence....haha!!! and minfang taught us MANYMANY more....hahahahaha!!!! den Garfield, Arlene and i bathed while the rest were watching Corpse Bride. and we snacked like HELL beb!!! heehee!!!!! n ohmann, i nvr knew jess had such poor self-control mann.....hurhurhur!!!! n jess looks like an ANGEL when she's asleep....okay, i'll change that to....jess looks like a burrito shaped angel when she's asleep in her sleeping bag....HAHAHA!!!! so cute!!! hehs!!! n i lost the foto i took with garfield n arlene n nermal.....btw, im the shaggy dog in the comic strips...hehs! the one that's always standing by the 'Beware of the dog' sign...haha! n xiner is odie....suits her perfect aniwae! so BLUR!!!!! hahahahaha!!!!

Yummm.........

2006-03-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

2dae i cooked fishhhh n boy was it GOOD!!!!! hahaha!!!! the sauce was almost completely cooked from butter but it didn't taste oily or greasy at all!!!! in fact, for a person who feels sick after eating butter, it was RELIRELI gret!!!!! i think it was cos of the lemon juice....hehs!!!! but yeah.....n it had garlic slices in it which absorbed the lemon juice so while the sauce was slightly garlicy, the garlic was lemony.....hehs!!!! food is reli interesting if you observe it well..... =P n i oso made the squash soupa!!!!! ohmann!!!! that was like fantastich!!!!! can't wait to make it again......it's so EASY!!!! all you do is cook the squash and put it in the blender......and it is sooper fun to blend too!!!!!! haha!!! eh....im gonna say this agn ar.....those ppl comin for rnd 1 of the 6-course meal.....if u dun tell me wen u're free den too bad if u can't make it on that day ar....im ok if u wanna cum on sat or evn sun.....jus brg the $$ n all will be gd!!! hahaha!!!! >.< kiddin larh.....

:(:(:(:(:(

2006-03-02T00:34:00.000+08:00

okayy...........2dae is a RELI horrible day......ferz of all, PE is SOOOPER boring now..........den durg EL i got the fright of my LIFE wen Ms Lim tole me tt i had to stay back cos i din brg my compre.....apparently she thot i din DO..........ahwellz.......i mean, i PROMISED my mom that i wun haf any probs w my skul wrk......(which i havent so far) n i haf LESSONS 2dae larh.......$100 is not cheap ynoe..........den during Viola i got veh upset cos i jux cudn get Bach.......yar.............sux larh......n to top it all math PT is due tmr n i dunno how redi we r....to tell the truth........i mean.....we're doing well n all, but we keep on finding small errors after we think thgs r finalized..........PISSING SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMMIT!

Aniwae, i was jux discussing sumone w my tutor n i think tt many ppl will NVR EVR wanna see her agn.......i mean, evn my tutor has his fingers crossed that she wun be given a second chance larh.......not onli was she rude, she held us ALL up n she's jux plain MAD!!!! i mean, how many ppl dyu noe hu can write a TEN page essay on hu had wronged them ovr the past TEN YEARS!!!!!!!!!!! CRAZY larh she...........i reli think she needs to go see a shrink...........ahwellz..........i hope i wun be seeing her tmr larh................

ehhhhh! i juz realized all the "tmr"s shud be "2dae"s n all the "2dae"s shud be "ydae"s...haha!!!!!!! that's wad u get from blogging at almost 1am in the morning........... =P

i hope that we will get good grades for math PT....i hope that EVRY1 will get GREAT marks cos i feel that evry1 put in A LOTTTTT of effort into our PT.......gd luck 4 math PT everybody!!!!!!!!!!!

~you can do anythg u put ur mind to~ - Marshall Mathers, Lose Yourself

CHilL!!!!!

2006-03-01T11:17:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhhh!!!!!! everyone's going MAD!!! evry1's stressed mann..............CHILL KYLE!!!!!!!! n evryone else hu's stressing......... OMG.....ok, sumone jux started singing the $1 song......that's so LAS yr!!!!!!!!!! hehs!!!!!! hurhurhur......kays...english liaoz....N MATH PT IS DUE TMR!!!!!!!!! WTF larh.....nvm.........shall CHILL!!!!!!!!!! =P

my bdae!!!!!

2006-02-26T19:32:00.000+08:00

ok.....so i was right to look forward to the wkend.....THAT WAS THE BEST BDAE I EVR HAD!!!!!!!!! [out of all i cud rmbr tt is....hehheh!!!!] aniwae i went tuition in the morn...[FINE! that was NOT fun] then we had lunch at Sakae Sushi [which was GRET!] den we went to Great World City cos our gym is there.....so since we were all still digesting our food, i asked to go to this nearby arcade....the kind for both kids and teens.....AND THAT WAS FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and for the first time in my life i got to drum PROPERLY! well, it was still drumpads......but better den nthg larh duh! den after that we went gyming n i feel so FIT now!!!! hahahaha!!!!!! so i cycled for 20 min [which was like 5 km....] den i did some strength training.....den i rowed for 20 min and den i cross-trained for 400m............hahaha!!!!!!!!!! it was sooper fun larh!!!! but im POOPED now...........haha! still! WORTH IT BEB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BEST BDAE I EVR HAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

::hapPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!::

25th & 26th Feb

breakdown.....

2006-02-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

mann......dun blieve i had a breakdown in skul........ferz time EVR do0d...........n i was bein so bloody violent w da board that i decided i HAD to step out else i'd haf hit sumone in the face or smthg......oh mannn..........n i was so fucking stressed that i din do the bloody math ass n i cudn go tell Ms Hoo cos i din dare to be within 2 feet of anyone........*sighz* my life is getting so screwed mann.......

and to my "counsellor"...if u're gonna b liddat den FINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i reli can't be too bothered redi....

=shrivels up and disappears= :(

unhealthy.....

2006-02-23T11:04:00.000+08:00

mann.........juz realized how sooper unhealthy i am mann.......haha!!!!!!!!!! my cardiovescular dunno wad crap is like....22% or smthg liddat........and that's 'poor'........average is like 75%????? yeah.....think so....aniwae, chinese was sooper gd today........we watched Sound of Colors or watevr it's called........i like Miriam Yeung!!!!!! she has a nice smile....... *grinz* n math was sooper fun too!!!!!!!! Mrs Ban came in for lesson and like at the end of the lesson she thanked us for giving her candy.......it was oni ONE PATHETIC candy larh.........hehs!!!!!!!!! kays.......lets not tok abt lit anw.........sucked.....but ohwellz............hehs! =P

im gonna get a gym MEMBERSHIP!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-22T16:34:00.000+08:00

hahahahaha!!!! gd thg i read the newspapers regularly.......i saw that a certain credit card company had this promotion that allows member to get free gym memberships so i tole my mom......and aniwae, she was always going on about getting a membership...... =P hehs! so im gonna go later and chk it out..............to hell with the bloody lit test larh.... kiddin beb..... >.< just as well kyle din cum 2dae cos i 4got to brg the jellybeans.....heehee!!!!! XD and aniwae you din call Kylie!!!!!!!!!!! so it's not my prob........... *sticks out tongue* hurhurhur!!!!! sooper headache now larh............wanna go slp but can't............*sighz* 4 once im lookin forward to the wkend...........soooper tired all the time........i evn ALMOST fell aslp durg HCL.....butden agn, it's chinese so maybe not cos im tired larh.....hehs! =P im gonna go gym now..........hahahaha!!!!!! so exciting!!!!!!! =P till nxt time.....stay tuned to tURTLE_EGg.blogspot.com!!!! hurhurhurhurhur!!!!!!!! LAMEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!! -_-"'

2006-02-21T11:02:00.000+08:00

Have you ever loved someone you'll give an arm for?
Not the expressin, NO! literally give an arm for.
When they know they're your heart, and you know you're their armor.
And you will destroy anyone who will try to harm her.
But what happens when karma turns right aronud and bites you?
And everything you stnad for turns on you dispite you?
What happens when you become the main source of her pain?
"Daddy look what i made!"
Dad's gotta go catch a plane.
"Daddy where's mommy? I can't find mommy where is she?"
I don't know, go play Hailey baby, your daddy's busy!
Daddy's writing a song this song ain't gon write itself.
I give you one underdog and yoiu gotta swing by yoiurself.
Then turn right around in that song and tell her you love her,
And put hands on her mother who's a spittin image of her.
That's Slim Shady, yeah, Slim Shady's crazy!
Shady made me, but tonight Shady rock-a-bye baby.

Chorus:
And when i'm gone just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice, everytime you hear the sound of my voice,
Just know that.
I'm lookin down on you smilin,
And i ain't gon feel a thing, so baby don't feel no pain,
Just smile back.

I keep havin this dream, i'm pushin Hailey on the swings.
She keeps screamin, she don't want me to sing.
"You're makin mommy cry! Why? Why is mommy cryin?"
Baby daddy ain't leavin no more.
"Daddy you're lyin! You always say that,
You always say this is the last time!
But you ain't leavin no more. Daddy you're mine!"
She's pilin boxes in front of the door, tryin to block it.
"Daddy please! Daddy don't leave! Daddy no, stop it!"
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket.
"This will keep you safe daddy, take it with ya!"
I look up, it's just me standin in the mirror.
These sinkin walls must be talkin cuz man i can hear them.
They're sayin 'you got one more chance to do right!
And it's tonight!
Now go out there and show them that you love them 'fore it's too late.'
And just as i go to walk out of my bedroom door it turns into a stage,
They're gone, and the spotlight's on, and i'm singin.

[Chorus]

Sixty thousand people, all jumpin out their seat.
The curtain closes, they're throwin roses at my feet.
I take a bow, and thank you all for comin out.
They're sceramin so loud, i take one last look at the crowd.
I glance down. I don't BELIEVE what i'm seein!
"Daddy it's me! HELP mommy, her wrists are bleedin!"
But baby we're in SWEEDEN! How did youi get to Sweeden?
"I followed you dad, you told me you weren't leavin.
You lied to me dad, and now you made mommy sad.
And i bought you this coin, it says 'No. 1 Dad!'
That's all i wanted, i just want to give you this coin.
I get the point, FINE! Me and mommy are goin."
But baby wait!
Ït's too late dad, you made the choice!
Now go out there and show them that you love them more than us.
That's what they want, they want YOU Marshall.
They keep screamin your name, it's no wonder you can't go to sleep.
Just take another pill. Yeah, bet you you will.
You rap about it. Yeah, word keep it real."
I hear applause, all this time i couldn't see.
How could it be, that the curtain is closin on me?
I turn around, find a gun on the ground. Cock it,
Put it to my brain, scream 'Die Shady!' and PUMP IT!
The sky darkens, my life flahes,
The plane i was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes.
That's when i wake up, alarm clock's screamin.
There's bird singin, it's spring and Hailey's outside swingin.
I walk right up to Kim and Kiss her, tell her i miss her.
Hailey just smiles and winks at her little sister,
Almost as if to say...

[Chorus]

SLI!

2006-02-17T17:48:00.000+08:00

SLI was sooper gd 2dae...everythg went sooper well (except that the GOH went to to the toilet so Syim was at a loss of wat to do.........hahaha!!!!!) aniwae, she handled it sooper well larh. Syim's a soooooooper gd commander................POWER GURL!!!!!!!!!

@&#^$%#

2006-02-16T17:32:00.000+08:00

whoa nelly!!!!! im acherli online at HOME!!!!! WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sooooooper surprised........2dae was CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!! realized that my eyes are getting worse......not near-sighted worse but they're getting more n more sensitive to light......evn the lighting in the classrm makes my eyes hurt and gives me a friggin headache.........it got so bad that i asked to switch off the lights above me in the Phys lab.......prob lah sia!!!!!! aniwae, ive got Ravel stuck in my head and it's reli annoying cos it's so bloody full of rhythms.....wahseh!!!!!!! heehee! den i wanna go clarify sumthg den WHO left redi arh?????? i wonder HOO?????? hurhurhur!!!!!!!! bloody hell lar....aniwae, finally e-mailed Yanti......meeting Prof Ang on thurs 2.30 pm.......eh wait!!!!! can anot? think long day leh.......hrmmmms..........oh wellz! nvm! see how larh....hafta go eat dinner......BLOODY HELL!!!!!!!!!! damn early larh......but no choice, got orch later..... >.<

EUPHORIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-14T07:56:00.000+08:00

OMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LUV MY SECRET BARNABAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she got me an EMINEM poster mann!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IM GONNA DIE OF EUOHRIA MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay beb.........hueva u r, thx a LOTTTTTT do0d!!!!!!!!!!! *muax* =P

STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-10T10:01:00.000+08:00

mann.........i've nvrevr been stressed in skul b4......every year wen perf tasks come rnd den i start to stress redi......dun get me wrg man, im NOT stressed abt the actual work.....it's juz all abt 'going to other ppl's house' and all that SHIT!!!!!!!!!! dammit........and things are pretty tense at home now larh........dunno how to open my mouth to tok to my mom abt that........oh wells........i think our math PT is soooooo gonna be GRET beb......heehee!!!!!!!!!! =P yayz!!!

koffs, wheezes and dies

2006-02-03T11:41:00.000+08:00

oh man........i din think my koff wud get so bad larh......and no i dun haf my reflections so i wun put it up yet......geezus....im like in the library and koffing my head off......bet the librarian is wanting to chuck me out man......reli larh.....and jnow i was in the hall for assembly and i koffed so loud and long that Joan turned rnd to stare....mannnn.........

my lungs are like so filled with gunk man....and i juz hafta koff so BLOODY loudly man.......DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*dies*

okay...i dun blieve im sayin dis......

2006-02-02T10:59:00.000+08:00

MATH IS FUN!!!!!!!!!! im NOT being sarcastic..reli, im not.......and probability is like the easiest ive ever done so far man........hahaha!!!!!!!!! aniwae, im like..leaning back in my chair with two of its legs up in the air while other ppl r bz slogging thru.......HEHS!!!!!!!! next post i shall put up parts of my CLE reflections.....hurhur!! reli farny crapping.......but it was kinda true kayz........hurhurhurhurhur!!!!!!!!!!!!

kay...am crapping.......didn't finis phy but waddahell man...hah! I JUST DUN GIF A DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh yeah beb!!!!!!!

blogblogblog!!!!!!

2006-01-26T13:09:00.000+08:00

whee!!!!!!!! we were all so high during fizix today man......AJ was going on abt thermister and mistress and the thermocouple......-_-'" LAAAAAME!!!!!!! hurhurhur! aniwae, we were all like walking back from the lab, and we were praying at every step we took tt it wud be ms hoo for CLE.......and wen we reached the fourth flr we were so effing loud [all the YEAH!s and WOOHOO!!!!!s.....hurhur] and i wos like "MS. HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" then i was like flashing the debil sign all ovr the place man..............hahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!! damn high larh.... damn high.......

aniwae, i juz found out like Mr Tan runs PASTA MANIA chain.......izzat kewl or izzat kewl.....do0d..................n i wanted to go shadow one of the chefs but unfortunately they dun allow ppl in thx to insurance and all that shit larh............hrmmmmm......dammit man....sucha motha-effing waste.......
[as u can see, im getting werked up abt tt due to my extra colorful langwich.....hurhurhur] yeah......it's so kewl larh........i mean....c'mon, how often can you find contacts to shadow chefs mann....................argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMNDAMNDAMN!!!!!!!

yupps, so we all got this revision exercise that we dun hafta do........and WANKER was doin it man......everyone thot onli jess was gonna do it....but im gonna do it too.......i needta prac larh.......im slacking off waaayyyy too much in class redi.......heh!!

CNY comin up.....NOT lookin forward to it........trust me........it's soooooo NOT worth the werk.....all that visiting and acting guai and all.......bleagh........hahaha!!!!!!! guess i'll juz put up with it larh.......hurhur!!!!!!!!!! =P

long time no blog mann....

2006-01-22T15:43:00.000+08:00

heya!!!! i haven't touched my blog in ages man..no time larh..aniwae, skulz started and so im not as bored redi.......harharhar!!!!!!!!!

so i got a new form teacher this year... [WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!] hehs!!! am i bein too mean? i juz prefer changing FTs every yr..reli, no other reason...... =P Form teacher Ms. Carmen Hoo Kamun.....i muz say she's pretty nice (for now).......altho she seems to have this weird fear of students chucking her car in the pond.......funny huh....NOT abt to happen.....why not?? bcuz.....
...
1. we aren't that mean.... (no reli! im not kiddin!)
2. our skul where got pond big enuff sia!!!!!
3. we'd rather set fire to the car then hafta lift it and all......(plus we get early day off due to the emergency evacuation.....hurhur!!!!!)
4. we're reli nice people after all...... [hey you there...gimme your lunch money NOW!!!!!!!!!! oops..u din't hear that.....]
(she drives a Volkswagon Beetle btw....it's the old model which i think is damn cute....but the colour's gross!!!! hehheh!! apparently she asked for rust but she ended up with caramel......hurhurhur!!!!!!)

no lah......at least we're satisfied (for now)......n i muz say, i'm damn impressed by the way she handles our class.....in the first place, we're like one of the rowdiest classes in skul but surprisingly we do get things done......real cool huh? and i actually respect her as our teacher.......most of ya shld noe that respect seldom comes from me.....not that i disrespect other teachers, it's just that i TRY my best not to make their lives hell....hehheh!! ah wellz......i'm acherli saying that [guyz, hang on to your jaws when you read this line.....hahs!!!] shez a gd teacher.....

uh-huhs........i hate Macbeth.....or actually....i just hate the homework.....hahs!!! hu doesn't eh...... ;P

cheers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RS, RS, and more RS......

2005-12-29T09:47:00.000+08:00

Dammit man..i reli cant stand RS larh..in the ferz place i dun evn noe why i chose tt friggin topic..and now i oso dunno wad im gonna do as my final product..oh mannn.......and i miss waking up in the morning and getting outta bed knowing tt i can be outta the house and having fun elsewhere [in the office tt is.....hehs!!] *haiz* oh wellz..nvm..maybe nxt yr larh.....

aniwaez, point is I CANT WAIT FOR SKUL TO START DAMMIT!!!!!!!!! rawr!! im saaaaaaaddd.........hehs!! nah..just damn restless and boreded..haha!! apa sahaja!! bleah..hrmmms..shall sit here and wait for my ass to rot off larh........ =)

back from the BORING trip...

2005-12-28T10:57:00.000+08:00

hehs!! bet most ppl would die to go overseas..........i'd die not to go.......it was ok i guess.....but it was SERIOUSLY BORING do0d......can die larh.....aniwae, im back!!! n i reli missed work and all.....heehee!!!!!

last day!!!! ahHhHh!!!!!!!!!

2005-12-19T08:47:00.000+08:00

uh-oh.....2dae's my last day working....after that it shalL BE BaCK TO DOING BORING STufF LIKE SITting at hoME STARING AT THE NICE WHITE CEILING....hahaha!!!!!!! i like to togGLE MY WORDS.....sms style....nOT THE WAY THE COmp does it.....hehs!!!!!! =P im being damN RANDOm nOW....why?????? dunNo..guesS IM JUST CURrently damN BOREd as usu.......hurhurhur!!!!!

just wanNA THK ALl my colLEAGUES FOR MAKING MY WORK EX SUCH A WOndERFUL TIME....haha!!! altho dERE WERE THE UPs and downs, guesS IT WAS STILl relireli fun and alL..... :) yupPs......

so..................as andris has already mentioNEd....[n plenty of other pPL IM SURE]......skul starts in 2 weEKS!!!!!!! wow! that's like 'were did the hols go man????' hehs!!!!! loOKIN FORWARD TO IT........nOT THE LESsoNS AND HOmework.....buT I HAVENT SEen a single class/skulmate since the last day of skul....['cept those in SYO...] hehs!!!!! mmmmm.....it'lL BE GREAT I HOPE........haha!!!!!! i proMISE MYSELF TO HAND IN ALl my hoMEWORK NEXT YEAR.......haha!!!!!!!!!!!!! let's just seE IF I Can do it tho.......... =P

for nOW, i'lL JUST COncentrate oN ENJOYING MY LAST DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

sumone's come along and burst my bubble....

2005-12-16T11:48:00.000+08:00

i wanna find out which sick-ass freak went and told my dad that my sis was in the office......FUCK IT LAH!!!!!!!!! woke up happy [which reli doesnt happen veh often nowadays] and came to the office happy.....dint evn last for half a day......sum kinda FUCKIN life man..............

pissed SHIT lah..........excuse my french guyz.......im reli juz DAMN pissed...........1 good day RUINED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! juz liddat!!!!!!!!! dammit man.........dammit!!!!!!!!!!

it's my life....

2005-12-14T13:37:00.000+08:00

hehs!!!!! prata lunch...bball after work.....dis is the LIFE do0d......hahahahaha!!!!!!! okay, maybe a minor flaw...im getting sick i think...hehs! im okay with that...but the office is gonna suffer biggie man...... =/ oooooops........not my business.....hehhehheh!!!!! mmmm......n Linda's on half day leave..........apparently she'll try to come back to bball w us.......haha!!!!! yeah sure.............why dun ya rest well b4 saying tt........

let's talk about my weird dream last nite........i din tell linda the details man.........i dreamt that i was in the office and sumhow she tripped over an open drawer of her cabinet......den obviously i wasnt gonna let anyone fall flat on their nose.....so i stuck out my hand to grab her and i got my arm broken...........hahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!! izzat a weird dream or WHAT???????? man......i woke up and i was lyk waddaHELL man?????? hehs!!! weirdest thing izzat she did almost fall b4 and i did catch her.......except that was cuz i stuck my foot rite in her path.......hehs!!!!!!! weird lah........

about 20 more days to skul........call me mad......i cant wait for skul man............hehs!!!!!!!!!! bet i'll change my mind wen the time cums but 4 now im sticking to that mindset.......*sighz*......work almost over........nvm.......haha!!!!! it was damn fun!!!!! thx allya guyz........hu made it fun... (or not).......hehs!!!! no lah.....alvya made it a gret ex.......wont hesitate to cum back nxt yr [provided, obviously, that i dun find another job on my own terms....] hahahaha!!!!!!! altho now i kinda lyk it, it's NOT very nice being called 'spy kid'.......NOT nice cheryl, you may be kiddin, but do0d, i came in oredy self-conscious of that position.......and it's reli not easy keeping in wad u guyz may happen to haf accidentally sed arnd me.....i hear more den u guyz tink.......hahaha!!!!!!!!

WOW!!!! dis is a relirelireli looooooong post........quite fun eh????? hahaha!!!!!

~peace out~ haha!! [since wen did i do tt man??????????? =/]

boreD BOREdER and boreDest...

2005-12-13T09:52:00.000+08:00

i reli haf no idea why i blog ynoe...no one noes that i haf a blog.. no one noes that i haf dis one at least..hmms..haha!! nvm..maybe i shall release dis blog..mmhmm..
aniwaez..i haf sumone i wanna thank so i mite as well do it here..

ANDRIS!!!!!!!! thx sooooo much do0d.....i dun think u're veh *thrilled* that i keep contacting you but waddahell larh..at least you helped man....hahs!! yupps..i shud pay you for consultations eh?? haha.. FAT HOPE!!!!!!!! *sticks out tongue*

damn bored............wanna go out kz.............quick tell me wen ya free.... =P

BUSTEd

2005-12-12T11:13:00.000+08:00

wahlao!! i still dun believe tt i stoopidly left my fone on the bed in full view for my mom to see lah...DAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMN!!!!!!!!!!! too pissed to write a good ferz post...*sighz* acherli not as much pissed as upset lah.......